Prayers from my journal

"Those who have left the deepest impression on this sin cursed Earth have been men and women of prayer." Dwight Moody

• I pray for Carmen that her pain heels that what she is experiencing work for her growth.
• Mom talk to me about a beating that her father gave her, that she will always remember she got hit with the branch to the point that she peed herself I pray that my mothers pain heel
• Today 1/16/2012 my younger sister Ibeth was threatened with the deportation is not just those words but the waves in emotions that it brings I pray that my sister finds her way and is able to sleep in peace
• Today Estevan told me that his co-worker who when he gets to work calls him baby or little one and then ends up screaming at him that he's not helping. I pray that he is able to find balance in his job and with this co-workers.
• Today I wonder what it is that I have with my partner Estevan. I pray that we continue in a partnership that is healthy, unselfish respectful, full of joy. I pray that it be done what our Mother La Virgen de Guadalupe has planned. 
• 1/17/2012 Carmen has been asked to stay in bed and her husband has taken on the duties of the house, she is only allowed from bed to the restroom back to bed. She will get her results of her analysis soon. Thank Soñora todo poderosa for another day of light, food and shelter.
• 1/18/2012 a prayer is like calling home, it is like an insight, going to peace, no one can disturb. I have nothing but good in my Corazon silence for the honest is peace. Silence for the wondering mind of those who feel alone can be torture. tonight I pray that I can get my classes and get the scholarship.

"I would rather work with God in the dark than go alone in the light." Mary Brainard

• I pray that I believe in myself enough to get through my graduation year. why talk about strippers- no se but I pray that we can help each other.
• Madre nuestra qur estas en el cielo. Santificado sea tu nombre venganos tu reino en la tierra como en el cielo. Agase su voluntad. Im going home. 

"We must pray for more prayers for it is the world's mightiest healing force." Frank Laubach

• Como la Universidad me Adopto. Buenos dias/ tardes. Hoy me invitaron a platicar de mi experiensia como indocumentada. Me a toda dar estas platicas deste que inicie la universidad. E aprendido mucho por medio de las presentaciones- la universidad me adopto. Enfrente el abuso de mi padre la misma persona que me enseño qie la escuela era lo mejor. 
• Señora madre ayudame a llegar a Seattle de SacTo. 
• Señor y señora you send the snow and rain you turn water into ice you blow the winds you have kept me here you have a plan for me if it's your will to let me fly on the 155 SF fly let it be so I've persisted I booked a flight five times the lady from last night got me the Oakland this morning. (Canceled) Reila got me a flight, thank her and let her know. I bet she was Polynesian. I've been checking flights and saw an 11:55 a.m. to SF which was too late at the front there was a woman (white) her dad was a Jew who was screaming and saying we were here before most of these people. I will make sure we get on that flight. I pray that they get home. As I was saying I went to customer service to get on the standby for San Francisco at 1:50 the white woman called management for clarity who affirm that absolutely no stand bys...I was able to get her to do it for me because the brown lady next to us did it without question from an Asian lady.

"Give God the blossoms of the day do not put him off with faded leaves."

"The world has been forced to its knees. Unhappilly we seldom find our way there without being beaten to it by suffering." Anne Lindbergh

"In prayer you align yourself to the purposes and power of God and he is able to do things through you he couldn't do otherwise." E Stanley Jones

• She just wanted to play and dance and she was punished for it
• Why did it have to become a game of hide-and-seek
• 2/10 to do: article on immigration woman abuse print, EVS class, MSC18 HW, read for Pan African, type paragraph for teachers and students, call tmobile, clean room cabinets, insurance home-call mom
• To do: # for printer,translate bio, Math HW, email Nora, tuition total 3311, 3200, 3286 + 25 late registration,100s Anastasia 

"Fortunate are the people whose roots are deep" Agnes Meyer

• Fortunate are the people whose roots are deep. If you know where you come from it means that someone in your life was close enough to you to communicate that history with you. But if you do not know you walk around feeling like your reality is defined by the next text message that they get. What I am saying is that to know means history of Familia was passed to you by mother or father or sister or brother a human species of your kind carry the same story. Now those who don't know: Foster and abandoned children.
• A prayer it's like calling home it's like an Insight it's peace no one can disturb. Nothing but good is in my heart. Silence for the honest is peace. Silence for the wandering mind of secretness those who feel alone silence be torture tonight I pray

"Let me tell thee, time is very precious gift of God, so precious that it's only given to us Moment by moment." Amelia Barr

• 12/30 BLM what is it going to take for brown women to protect their whom. 
• Call Tia Eli and Tio Chez
• Love we are dancing. It wasn't just us. Spirit was there, Carlos was there, plantitas verdes were there. Amor Love, with you has been like coming home, your age is a lighthouse over 5 years older than me. You're smooth walk and voice that carries sweet words of honey
• 11/25 so as we walk together as Sunrise comes and moonrise go over and over realizing that we are the leading edge of work to passion 
• dragonfly 
• Kim brought them home 
• writing children's book
• Como escribir honesta mente de ti, mi viejito bailarin
• It was coo today- i moved forward and paid my bills. And you moved forward and made food for yourself. Tea fruit to bed. 

"People need joy. Quite as much as clothing. Some of them need it far more." Margaret Graham

"Prayer means to pray with God till you are like them. If we really pray, we will become more like God, or else we will quit praying." E. M. Bounds

• 12/7 so what if Mom and Dad were in love and their fortune came from economic pain. I could see now dad's words made mom smile shy and dance. He was the protection that her body was attracted to. His white shoulders. You were in my dreams dark man with a vision of your strong arms. I can feel my spirit come complete as I allow the love of my creation to shine through- let it be the divine light that carried Mom and Dad's fluids to meet as one divine light in that because at the emotional and physical psychological level I simply don't know.
• Can I continue to declutter getting ready for my departure the funny thing is that I don't know who will be calling for my help just getting ready because that's my impulse. I walk from my small kitchen on Elizabeth Street only my writings, art and readings memories of Leo still swimming in my heart but so do Estevan and at times Jamier on and at times Jamier, all man that I love with my soul. I made that choice you see, for I see the good they left in the difficult times we went through but as I stood in my Cocina I say bless their hearts bless them and their families may as those thoughts prayers come I said I've made a choice I can only honor the beautiful parts of them and the rest is for them to heal.

"I used to pray that God would do this or that. Now I pray God will make his will known to me." Mme. Kai-shek

Sembrar Para Cosechar

Ama woke early and made caldito de rez. My last errand de aller was bringing home carnita home for moms morning caldo. Nada de ganas de salir de cama fue lo primero que pense, pero poco a poco abriendo los ojos ariva llegue. Me levante a empesar un poco de organizacion en la casa.

La morning consistio de trabajo de patio y jardin. Inaguramos El Jardin Salsa. Y nuestro arbolito de lima encontro casita hoy. Ruben le nombre. Todavia no le cuento a mi Ama que asi se llama, como mi Tio/su hermano, pero con tiempo sabra. La tina que Mike el owner de la casa saco del bathroom al renovarlo. Ahora es la vase de Jardin Salsa. Entre mi Ama y yo movimos la tina asia la pared atras de el cuarto de las lavadoras. Muy acomodadita con palos de madera la anivelamos para que sentara derechita.

Mi Ama me cuenta que cuando abuelita ya estava enfermita de sus huesos la traia a ella y unas de mis tias ayudandole en el jardin de una casa muy grande que tenian sus papas. Mi Ama contava "Nos desia mi Ama 'Dale vuelta a esa y pasamela' y ahi iba por la planta con mi cara (sin ganas de acerlo) pero iba." Ama segia contando, "Mi mama se ponia a limpiarle los gusanos a la planta y nos pedia que revisaramos las plantitas que se veian enfermitas." Cambiando de tema en un aliento diso "No teniamos permiso para salir, ni para la escuela, ni para trabajar y menos a los bailes." Le pregunte "Y desde cuando ocupas permiso para trabajar?" "Pues ya vez", dice Ama. "Las tenian como esclavaz de casa," y las dos nos reimos. Continuamos a organisando el patio poco a poco. Moviendo la plantita de limon de enfrete del patio para la parte de atraz. Entre las dos cortamos un container viejo de javon y lo convertimos en maseta. Ese projecto fue team work for sure. Me di cuenta que mi mamacita todavia tiene fuerza. Kuchiyasos a mano y con martiyo fue nesesario para obtener el corte que buscavamos.

Y asi llegaron a casa bajo el sol la planta de limon que se morfio a doz. La otra parte del que llego durante el trabajado del jardin fueron varios aprendisajes. Aprendi que los gusamos matan las plantas, que las papas cresen pajo tierra, que cuando se quiere plantar semillas se forman charquitos muy ligeros, el minimo de ondo, y las semillas se acuestan y con tierra muy lightly se tapan y apapachan. Al fin llego el recordatorio de el teaching de rezar y la bendicion. Al terminar de sembrerar el la planta de limon mama dice "Que con la vendicion de dios crescan muy bonitas."

Asi como entramos a la casa y me puse a darle un shower a Paloma, llego la lluvia y luego en granizo. Gracias ancestros por estar con nosotros. Gracias por giar nuestro cuerpo alma y corazon en esta lucha bella que se llama vida.

Seguimos nuestro dia con mas vendicionez. Mi hermana Ibeth llego a tomar un cafecito y un caldo de rez. Mi sobrinita Areli anduvo corriendo por la casa llenandonos de su inquietud, su risa, dirty diapers y berinches, de todo un poco. Y asi nos llego la tarde con un poco de ropa lavada mucho mucho cafe y unos cuantos episodios de telenovelas y asi como si estavamos en presensia de la luna. Buenas Noches.

Dia de Trajedia y Nueva Vida

Romeo y Juliet

Martes Febrero 21 2017 Empenso como un dia comun. Este fin de semana nos toco ir a visitar a mi Tia Teresita. El lunes aviamos ido a comprar un pajarito cantador por que el de Mama que trajimos de Washington State se escapo por un guequito de vajado de la puerta. Asi que escojimos una parejita, blanquita con rallitos amarillos en sus plumas. Asi como abri los ojos despertando en la sala de mi Tia Teresita, Ama dice, "Se murieron los pajaritos". Nos quedamos las dos en silencio un ratito. "No se por que" dise Mama. Oh no pense, pobresitos. Caritas tristes. Y asi empesamos el Dia en Fresno California. Hoy nos toco regresarnos a Sacramento despues de un largo fin de semana de familia, cuentos, comida, cantos, risas y lagrimas.

El Viernes antes de nuestra salida asia Fresno sali con las chicas por el cumple de Victoria. Nola pasamos muy suave, villar, margarita, baile y comida. Esto quiere desir que me kede vien dormida en la casa de las amigas y no llegue a casa, como acostumbro, para no manejar tomada. Haci que claro que mi Ama no pudo dormir como acustumbra cuando no llego a casa. La puso de mal umor que no alla llegado a casa y me dise por telefono el siguiente dia en la morning, "Solo me tienes de tu mensa aqui esperandote". Le respondi "No Ama, ya save que este es mi paso de viaje."

Por fin agarramos camino, y en silencio nos fuimos. Una que otra cancion buena, ya que solo tengo FM radio en mi Hondita Civic. Pasamos por una hamburger de In and Out, gas y un ice cream. Por fin llegamos a casa de mi prima Marlen aka Nena con mi Tia Teresita, Emma y Beto tambien conocido como Vito. Llegamos a comer taquitos de asada con una ensaladita de nopales y otra de aguacate. AY que Rikisimo comimos. De ahi llego el Gran Karaoke! Que empiese el canto y la sanacion. Cuando Tia Teresita empeso a cantar la cansion de "Mi querido Viejo," mi Ama que pone sU cavesita abajo y disiendo no puedo escuchar esta cancion por que me hace llorar. Asi como murmurava sus palabras se tapava los ojos y empesava a llorar. Que sentimiento de pajarito enjaulado en este sistema de los E.U. que mantiene a la gente indokumentada esclavisada. Encarselanda la esperansa de poder ir a visitar a nuestros queridos. Asi como la lagrimas lavavan el alma de mi madrecita, la flama de lucha en mi alma cresia. Todo en un momento.

 El resto de el tiempo con mi tia, prima y sobrina continuo a llenar nuestros corazones con calor de familia y calor de apoyo. Desde que empesamos a ir a Fresno cada otro fin de semana la historias de Abuelita Maria Elena y Abuelito Jose an empesado a fluir y como esponjita escucho. Historias de Tias y Tios cantadores. Historias de madres e hijas. Historias de trabesuras entre hermanas. Y otras historias que se asoman, como la de violencia contra el cuerpo de la mujer por diciplina de un padre y o la violencia sexual por descuido de los padres. Siento que me tocara hacer esas preguntas algun dia para que porfin dejar que las mujeres de mi familia escuchen su propria verdad.

 Los pajaritos amanesieron muertos, la morning de nuestro regreso a Sacramento. Mi Ama los saco para enfrente, para que Emita no los fuera encontrar muertitos en el cuarto. Al prinsipio no estava lista para verlos. Me levante, enrolle mi sigarrito de medicina de flores verdes y mi trabaja ya lo conosia. Acomodar a los pajaritos muertos juntitos. Les puse una ojita estendida abajo de sus cuerpecitos acostandoles un a lado del otro, como ellos viecen querido. Con otra oja de Fall los cubri. Ahi quedaron Romeo y Juliet, libres del cuerpo para bolar juntos con los espiritos de todo pajarito enamorado.

Sacramento marches against Trump agenda one month after inauguration

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News Frebruary

Dream Act Coalition to Deliver Signatures to Arizona GOPMyFox Phoenix
PHOENIX - A group of valley Latinos hoping to keep their dream alive are trying to convince Republican lawmakers to revive the Dream Act. They already collected 7000 signatures online. Now they hope to get another thousand on paper.

Immigration was hot topic at white house hispanic action summitChronicle-Telegram
Most recently the DREAM Act was passed in the US House, but failed in the Senate. The DREAM Act is a piece of legislation designed to give path to citizenship to those who either attend higher education and graduate, or join the military.

Republicans talk tough on immigrationFinancial Times
“It takes a little bit of courage from all of us, but we will continue campaigning for the Dream Act to be put up for a vote,” says Ms Andiola, referring to the bill that would create a path for legalisation for undocumented people, but which has ...

Drivers Licenses for Illegals Brought Up AgainKMJ Now
Fresh off his victory with the California Dream Act, Assemblyman Gil Cedillo (D-Los Angeles) is aiming again to get drivers licenses into the hands of illegal immigrants living in the Golden State. But his efforts are not certain to win favor with ...

-Subcomandate keeping it real!

Spread the word to this great Family event!

Day of Hope in Sacramento - Convoy of Hope

Saturday, November 5th, 2011, 10am-3pm
Cal Expo Sacramento, CA
Cost: FREE
Gates open at 10am - Rain or Shine
While Supplies Last • All are welcome • No I.D. required

Bring your family! Enjoy services & entertainment!
EVERYTHING IS FREE!

Groceries - More than 100,000 pounds of free groceries.

Health Fair - Free Medical and Dental screenings with local doctors, medical professionals & dentists.

Kids Zone - Dozens of free carnival games, inflatables and live entertainment. Free concessions and lots
of prizes.

Hair Cuts - Free haircuts for the whole family by local barbers and hairstylists.

Job Fair - Free services include professional resume writing, interview coaching and on-site interviews
with local employers.

Family Portraits - Free family portraits courtesy of local photographers.

Community Services - Dozens of local community service organizations will assist with a variety of
needs.

Live Entertainment - Free live music and entertainment.

BBQ Lunch - Free BBQ lunch for everyone in attendance.

Sacramento Convoy of Hope

The Sacramento Convoy of Hope is a collaborative effort between dozens of local churches, businesses, social service organizations, local government and Convoy of Hope, Inc—a 501(c)(3) non-profit humanitarian organization, serving in the United States and around the world, providing food for the hungry and relief for people in crisis.

The outreach will provide an estimated ten thousand people with a tangible message of hope—free groceries, health screenings, job fairs, haircuts, games and activities for children, and much more. All goods and services are provided to guests free of charge.

This all-volunteer event mobilizes hundreds of area residents to serve and make a difference in their community. Strong participation by local businesses, churches, community agencies, and individuals is crucial to the success of this event

Last year more than 7,000 guests were served at 2010’s Day of Hope Sacramento!

A Light Shines on California’s Future

California DREAM students from 38 colleges and universities light a torch in the South Bay

Los Angeles – The sixth stop in a fifteen-city tour titled “California DREAM Torch” will be Playa del Rey. DREAM students representing 38 campuses throughout California are hosting these Olympics-style community events from San Diego to Sacramento in support of the California DREAM Act.

WHAT: Bonfire, meal, and lighting of a torch. DREAM students, families, supporters will meet at sundown to light the torch, symbol of hope and a prosperous California future, and will call on Governor Brown to sign the California DREAM Act bill.




WHEN: Thursday, May 19, 2011, starting at 6 p.m..

WHERE: Dockweiler Beach, 12001 Vista del Mar, Playa Dey Rey, CA 90293

WHO: Members of the California DREAM Network (a project of CHIRLA).

WHY: The CA Dream Torch is making its way around California, from San Diego to Sacramento. We need to show that DREAMs live in California and urge Governor Brown to keep his promise to support and sign the CA-Dream Act! Join the South Bay Dream Network for a bonfire and fun! We will be lighting the torch at Dockweiler Beach. We need to urge our local elected officials to support the CA-Dream Act, stand up for their constituents in the South Bay area and support equal access to higher education.

TRANSPORTATION is LIMITED: Transportation will be provided from the CHIRLA office in Los Angeles. If you have questions contact Felipe Escobar at felipe-escobar@hotmail.com or email Raul at raul917@msn.com

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CONTACTS: Jorge-Mario Cabrera,
(562) 243-5559


Raul Preciado, CDNet
(323) 500-5282

Ivan Ceja, iceja310@gmail.com